Hi. I have not been too great these last few days. Don’t ask why. On Sunday, I dropped KC off to the airport after my Jazz class. He was going to Pune for a few days and then to Mumbai… then back to Pune and returning after 6 days. I was pissed… he was going to miss V day. Initially, he had planned to return for one evening so we could have dinner together. I felt like something had changed. I am very scared of things changing… of becoming a boring couple who are too lazy to do anything fun… I miss the energy we used to have. We have traveled all over the country to be with each other even for one night. Most of our relationship and 1 year of marriage was long distance. I remember this one time- I had to go for a conference to Lonvala. I worked most of the night with my colleagues on a ppt, we left early morning for Lonvala… worked all day… partied till late night… started ppts next day early morning… went for water sports in the evening… returned at night for dinner at the Boss’s house… left at 1 am for guesthouse… took the early morning flight to Indore… spent the day and night with KC… flew back in the morning to Mumbai… worked all day… took the train at night to Gujarat. And he has done the same for me.
And then negative thoughts come in… what if… what if… what if. Sometimes I wonder if we are happy or I am just like Carrie, not used to not having drama. Which one is it?
- Travelling from Pune to Gurgaon to Pune to Mumbai to Gurgaon does sound hectic. It seemed like a genuine reason
- I did not want to be with him on V day if he did not want to be with me. Plain and simple. I do have my pride and ego