Before any new role, a huge part of me has always wondered; “Can I do this? Am I sure? Just because am good at X does not mean I will be good at Y too. Even though Y is just an extension of X. Maybe I should have stayed where I was. What if I fail? What if I realise am one of those people who knows shit about their job and spends his/her entire life pretending otherwise?”
Though the new role has looked like a tangle of wires and I haven’t known where they start, where they end and how do I untangle them – find the problem and the solution; things are starting to seem clearer day by day. I am not stressing about it. I am not freaking out. I still have to get inducted and until then, am going to take it easy. In my mind I have already planned how many days am going to travel next month (12 days + 6 days in Gurgaon + 2 days in Hyderabad = 10 days in Mumbai) and which all cities (A’bad, Surat, Baroda, Rajkot, Bhopal, Indore, Gwalior (!!), Jabalpur (!!!)). I also know which part of the job is going to frustrate me and there is no getting away from that.
The other half of the area is vacant right now and I don’t think the organisation has any plans to fill up the opening before January to save on the cost. Which means, there is nobody to teach or guide me and no colleague to bond with. I have to figure this out on my own, make my own mistakes (hopefully, not catastrophic ones) and learn from them. This part is tough. It is an opportunity as well because for 6 months, I can manage the entire region. The responsibility will enhance my CV. But it isn’t going to be easy. I will have to stay positive, work hard, travel a lot and not screw up too much.
Stay with me.